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2004-11-13 - 8:53 p.m. orphanage I've been visiting an orphange lately, for CAS hours, but the next visit would be next month. It did get me thinking. What would it be like adopting one of those kids? I've seen some of what happens when a child is deprived of a normal family, deprived of love and I keep wondering, what would happen if I adopt that child. A young child, still not set in its ideas of the world, so that I can influence its thoughts. What would happen then? If I could, I would change those who have already led their lives. I would try to help them out of the hell they think they are in. But there are so many, aren't there? And I am only one. Still too young to look after a child. And it is probably rather disturbing that I would want a child, just to see the effects of upbringing on its psyche. Some of my classmates have told me that. I scared them... Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart, that I wouldn't cry at the drop of a hat. Once, I could do that. I don't know what happened since then. But that is not me. I care. I know I care. I don't know if I want to continue caring... My thumb is hurting, the one I dislocated before. Maybe it's the cold. Time to fall ill again. 2004-11-13 - 8:29 p.m. open your arms in welcome ...chances are, I'll be back in Singapore to go to JC. In any case, look forward to my return on the 17th of December this year. On my agenda: - Cosplay~! Anyway, more news later... ?lt;/P> |
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